"These people honor me with their lips,
but their hearts are far from me.
They worship me in vain;
their teachings are but rules taught by men"

Matthew 15:8-9 (Isaiah 29:13)


Though seeing, they do not see;
though hearing, they do not hear or understand.

In them is fullfilled the prophecy of Isaiah:
"'You will be ever hearing but never understanding;
you will be ever seeing but never perceiving.
For these people's heart has become calloused;
they hardly hear with their ears,
and they have closed their eyes.
Otherwise they might see with their eyes,
hear with their ears,
understand with their hearts
and turn, and I would heal them'"

Matthew 13:13-15 (Isaiah 6:6-10)





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Friday, April 20, 2012

tengoku de omachishi te imasu

 and who heals the healer when he is ill? i've asked this so many times, in hope that through the darkness another will answer. not as much to be healed as it is just knowing 1 other person out there is doing the same work. perhaps, just such a thought is enough to heal me, the thought that i am not alone. but i've never heard an answer, which then the revelation occurs to me... i am the one who h...as to heal myself.

and through the countless times where i've healed others, what did i say to them? what is the treatment? ... then the answer is obvious. Treatment is "to praise God." Sit there and think about the blessings God gave me and appreciate? No. That isn't praising God, that is counting your selfish gains. Asking God to help the world and those who are in more need? No. That is simply glorification of self-importance, self-righteousness. What then is praising God? It is as it is... praise God for who He is.

In sad times, praise God. In happy times, praise God. Praising God is not the effect of the outcome of our lives, for that is conditional and selfish. Praising God is the cause to joy. We don't praise God because we are joyful, we praise God so we may be joyful. We praise God for who He is, thus praising God is the reflection of knowing God, the reflection we are in this relationship, we are never alone.

All my life, all I have done, earned, seen... is worthless
in comparison to knowing You.

 

 

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I use to blog a lot, kept a journal of everything from 2005 all the way to 2008. In it I've written down over 500 personal studies, testimonies, and conversations with God. I started the blog for myself, personal reflection of how my life was progressing after losing my girl. But at one point it was very popular, read by many people and even pastors. From that point, I stopped posting many of the studies, especially my seminary papers, because I realized some people are cheating off it, others are preaching from it without permission.

Sometimes I wonder why I stopped posting all together. I still have a lot of amazing personal studies, but I guess I'm planning to write them into books instead. But then I wonder why I  stopped writing books. I guess because I came face to face with the reality of truth --> people don't give a damn about anything or everything except that which benefits themselves. Wait, correct that, it's "what I just said" + it has to be lazy, doesn't require change, and basically falls on their lap. People don't goto church, believe in God, etc... because they're interested in the truth. They do those things as a personal affirmation of their own self-righteousness or reprimanding for the guilt of the lack of there is.

Pharisees weren't waiting for some Messiah, they're waiting for some dude to show up and pat them on the back and tell them how wonderful they are. Likewise when it comes to revivals, churchies aren't looking for the revelation of truth that calls them for change, for reformation. They're just looking for God to pat them on the back and tell them what wonderful little christians they are and give them everything they want. They don't care about the people in their walls, they care about the boasting rights of how big the number of their congregation is and how much better their church is in comparison to the others.

Examining Genesis opened up the truth of the heart of man. The garden episode is the revelation of what "caused" the effects of today's man. A man so devious, so empty, that purposely tricked his own wife to disobey God and then turns around and blames God as the instigator of his failures. And the evangelical response? noooo, man couldn't be that evil... it must be some "snake"... oh that snake is uh... uh.. well this evil guy name satan... yeah, so it is satan to blame, he caused all our miseries and caused us to betray God, caused us to sin... we're not responsible, it's that evil guy... because afterall... "we're pure and innocent, righteous, and victim of circumstances." For real?

And thousands years past, people have not changed. Through the prophets, through the stories, through the revelation of Christ Jesus, man still have not changed. Then what is the whole point? Why should I waste any more time revealing truths? People aren't interested in truth, they're interested only in lies, still covering themselves with excuses, and slaves to the inability to confront themselves in the mirror of truth. How can one reconcile with God through the blood of Christ, when one is incapable of facing and admitting its corruption? Sure before baptism, every participator gives that generic testimony - "God forgive me because I'm angry all the time, my addictions, 'cause I'm not good enough, because of my many sins, etc... etc..." That's admitting the effect, not the cause. We admit the things we've done, the characters of our traits... but what is the heart of the issue....?

Is it any wonder then why so many people proclaims to have "repented" yet finds no transformation? No changes? And still succombs to the depth of corruption in their hearts? Revealed of course in a congregation of apathy... that cries out for revival... and here we have come full circle.

I think the only thing that kept me going these past 2 years is the thought I would die on my birthday this year. But when my birthday came, death claimed my grandmother instead and left me here wondering what to do...

Teaching english forever in a foreign land?

Go back and return to engineering, starting from scratch?

Be a pastor? furthering a tradition of lies that I no longer believe in?

Keep writing? Books that touch the hearts of a few, but eludes the mass who choose to follow lies?

 

People ask what is the whole gospel  is about...

and how sad it is that people just throw them the 4 spiritual laws.

 

It is about this.

 

Honor.

Integrity.

Compassion.

Mercy.

Justice.

Courage.

Love.

 

What is the gospel? It is the revelation when we look deep within ourselves and see the filths and uglies within, and realized .... that Christ is our only hope... for change.

 

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I sat on the subway, mp3 plugged in my ears. A cute young girl across the aisle was staring at me. I looked back, she quickly looked away with a shy smile. Yet... I felt nothing.

I sat on the subway, as I have so many times. I looked around, all these empty faces, souless people. I walked through the busy streets of the city, surrounded by glamorous beautiful people. But when I closed my eyes, I could see beyond their flesh. All I saw were dead people.

How tired is my soul... I remember when I was young. Everywhere I went, heads turned to look at me. Eyes turned from whatever they were on, to stare at me. A girl I loved once told me, the aura of God's light was upon me and everyone was drawn to it. God said to me once that I am His light, to shine in the darkest place even where other lights had faded. But I have been fading... for a long time.

It's been a long time since anyone on the streets would pay attention to me. I roamed and disappeared among the faceless souless crowd. So why are they looking at me now? What are they thinking? Nothing's changed. At least nothing I am aware of.

Years ago I was in love. And decade later I can still hear her voice ringing in my mind. Her breath on my neck. Her arms around me. Her perfume in the air. A decade later, I have evolved into something else. I have prophecised. I have blessed. I have cursed. I have changed lives. I have brought down churches, businesses. I have championed revivals. I have brought hope to the hopeless, healed the broken hearted, cared for the orphans and the widows. I have brought people closer to God than they've ever been. I have free captives from demons. I am more powerful than I ever was. They say I am the man with the golden fingers, everything I touch turn to gold. People who bless me were blessed back 10 times. And those who cursed me faced the wrath of my Father without mercy. Company upsets me with their dishonest practices, I walk away... and they fall. I have all the money I need. Even when I didn't ask, God blessed me more than I need. In the years, so many girls fell in love with me, but I could not feel a thing for them. I live my life without care, I answer to nobody except God. I have power, I have money, I have love and adoration from others. Yet, all this... could not fill the hole she left behind in my heart.

I want to die. And life begets the irony... I am surrounded by death, yet I am the one who wants to die... but I could not die. An immortal being lost in this ecclesiaste. Father won't let me die.

I worked the church, for decades I worked the church. I preach, I prophecize, I speak... nobody listens... so they collapse. They cry out for revival, yet refuse the reformation. They ramble on and on with their meaningless cliches and jargons, religious nonsense. They sit and talk about evangelism and spreading God's Word, but neglect the nonbelievers within their own walls. So I walked away from them. But God keeps using me to share the Word, His message with the nonbelivers. Everywhere I go, whoever I meet, it is someone looking for answers and I comfort them, I share with them. And thus the prophecy became fulfilled a 2nd time... first for the Jews, then for the gentiles.

I have white scar under my eye. People asked me what it is. It is a tear drop... shed for the this world. This world makes me weep. People obsessed with themselves, greed, pride, fame, power, etc... all the things that have no value. I have power. I have money. I have these things... but what I would do to trade them all for the one thing I cannot have, that eluded me. What I would give to forget her. There was one girl that did make me forget. And I cherished her for 8 years... only to watch her throw away her life for these worthless things...fame, greed, vanity... all I could do was shed a tear and leave her be. I cry for this world, I cover their shame with my wings, but nothing can cover the truth of what they are.

I am so tired of this world... I am tired of being entangled in the web of their lives... their meaningless lives. I want to die... close my eyes. cover my ears. I'm tired of hearing their nonsense, their excuses, their arrogant hearts, and their greedy desires. everything is meaningless. let the light fade... let this world remain in darkness... who cares.

fuck the world.

 

 


Wednesday, July 20, 2011

8 years later
time goes by fast
got my memories
and they will last
i try to keep it simple
cause i hate goodbyes
and i try to keep it simple
by telling myself that

I,
I Will remember you
and all of the things
that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
but words get in the way
So were not together
I will remember you
I will remember you

We're a picture
In my mind
When I wanna find you
I just close my eyes
You'll never be that far from me
So don't say goodbye 'cause
You'll never be that far from me
I'm telling myself

that I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
but words get in the way
So were not together
I will remember you

You were there when I needed a friend
Thank you thank you
I never told you how much that meant
Gotta thank you thank you

I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
but words get in the way
So

I, I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
but words get in the way so,
We're not together
I will remember..
We're not together
I will remember you

I will remember you


Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Analytical Theological Critique of the title The Shack, written by WM. Paul Young.

Analytical Theological Critique of the title The Shack, written by WM. Paul Young.  

I have heard both positive and negative reviews of the book The Shack. Some mentioned this book as an eye-opener against the stale religious clichés, while others accused the book as another “universalism” themed. In this report, I will evaluate the contents of this title and address its theological accuracy to the Scripture truth, or the lack thereof.

Premise/Preface:
The preface of the book gave mild background to the story. Since I know the premise beforehand: A supposed good person of a religious background had a conversation with God in the shack where his daughter was kidnapped, raped, and murdered—therefore I must address a couple of issues with the premise. The foremost problem is my concern over this book being a “fictional” book. Fictional depicts the fact that the content of the book is purely hypothetical, and not actual. The reason being that there is a personal bias that cannot be ignored. The bias is, again, reflected in humanity’s personal ego to justify the victim as innocent. The premise suggests a “good righteous man” suffered unjustly, however every man who suffers is depicted as righteous to begin with. Ever watch the news? Every “victim” of some tragedy is always depicted as a hero, a good Samaritan, and a good person. However, that is not necessarily true. Does death make one great?

The real victim to be addressed is the daughter, of course, but since she is not the main character of the book, not the one who has the conversation with God, not the one who struggles with understanding God, therefore is irrelevant to the evaluation. The “sufferer” in this story is the father, but whether he is just or righteous is only by the fictional creativity of the author. In short, if the story is “true,” the premise would weigh more. Since the story is not true, then can we honestly say there is such an incident where a good righteous man suffers in such a manner? That God allowed him to suffer like this? Hypothetically we can argue that yes God definitely allows tragedy, but again, this specific tragedy is a work of fiction. Therefore unless we ourselves have witnessed such a tragedy either personally or witnessed it happen to a real person, can we accuse God of it? Point being, this premise does seem somewhat incorrect in debunking God’s divine protection over His beloved, since this premise is fictional.

Even so, the main character is still by far not exactly a good person. The book revealed that he probably murdered his own father, and even laughed at it when he mentioned it to others. (pp. 40) And again, it is hypothetical that such a person could still become a good father, husband, and family man. But on the flip side, traumatic beginnings usually steers a man into a life of destructiveness, as the sin of the father carries on to the son. It is far more likely such a man would turn out just as abusive as his own father if not worse. Therefore the whole premise of this main character himself is hypothetical and not necessarily possible.

In essence, though everyone suffers, but is it true that God would allow such evil to come upon the righteous? This question cannot be answered by this hypothetical premise from the book. 1) Judging from the preface, he doesn’t appear as a good man despite how messed up his childhood was. 2) Even if he is depicted as a good person later on in his life, he is still fictionally formulated. 3) Even if he is a real person, but every man who is a victim of such circumstances would be proclaimed righteous, either by others or by themselves. This is the essence of sin to begin with, a sense of ethical fallacy of self-righteousness, the very first step in accusing God of unfairness. He who accuses is greater than the one being accused.

"Would you discredit my justice? Would you condemn me to justify yourself?
Job 40:8  

This issue, however, may not actually be a problem or weakness to the book. The author’s premise is not to correct a theological fallacy as addressing a more applicable situation. Because in times of suffering and hardship, we can safely say because of sin and the pride of personal ego, majority of even the most purpose driven believers often found themselves in the shoe of judgment, accusing God of what they believe is unfair. As such, the reason the father had the conversation with God in the shack is because this is what most of us will do, even if it is wrong to accuse God to being with. Personally I wouldn’t address the issue from where the author did, because he is creating a fallacy in agreeing with anyone’s disgruntle attitude towards unfairness of God as justifiable—then taking it from there to address why God was not unfair. The problem should really be addressed in the attitude of man and correct the misunderstanding of God’s role with us. Remember the story of Job: when God finally spoke, He rebuked Job rather than comfort him or explained Himself to him. He didn’t need to, He is God. Job, being a man of God, only needed the presence of God to come to his senses. Why? Because light reveals darkness, the divine presence of God itself is enough to clear all the deceptions in Job’s mind and heart at the time. Job understood… He is God.

When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered, I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before you.
Psalm 73:21-22  

This is the same revelation Asaph went through in Psalms 73. He was standing on a slippery slope of faith because he was deceived with envy of the prosperity of the world. But like most people, we expected that God will correct his view, comfort him, and then when he will be fine and  return back into His presence. What happened to Asaph is the same as Job, when Asaph enters the presence of God… all the lies vanished and he was humbled before the truth. The divine presence of God itself is sufficient. Hence, this completely debunks the premise of the book where this character was in a shack and speaking with God. If this being in the shack with him was indeed God, His mere presence would’ve set him straight, He didn’t need to explain Himself.

Then he said, "I am the God of your father, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob." At this, Moses hid his face, because he was afraid to look at God.
Exodus 3:6  

Up to Chapter 5
There’s not much to remark upon at this point since these chapters so far have been just details to the story. It does address some issues concerning how hard it is for someone to conceive the idea that this note really is from God. But there is also another message that I think many readers may have missed. Up to this point I would guess most readers’ view of Mack is a believer struggling in faith. Not only so, Mack was a seminary graduate and a servant of God. It was because of this great sadness, which led him astray and causing his faith to stumble. However, this is a misconception.

The real picture here is, Mack was never a believer to being with. Just because he went to seminary it doesn’t necessarily mean he is a man of God per say. In fact in the premise, it described Mack’s view of God as brooding, distant, and aloof (pp. 12). This suggests a person who does not really have much of a relationship with God. However, what really helps us understand where he is in this walk with God is his constant doubting of God’s existence. In general, there are 3 levels of unbelief. The first level is the most general, the question of whether God exist. When a believer reached a certain spiritual maturity, this unbelief is no longer an issue, the person’s abundant experience with God would’ve eliminated any doubts. This leads to the 2nd unbelief, questioning God’s love. This is where “most” believers are at, and where I personally consider the stage of spiritual maturity one must be at before being called a believer. Why? Because a believer is one who believes in God, if one doubts His existence, then how can we claim one believes? The third stage of unbelief is one that plague many believers, but they don’t know it. It is the question, “Is God’s grace sufficient for my weakness?” Apostle Paul affirmed this in the Scriptures, yet many believers today still wonder whether their mistakes and imperfection would catch up to them and ultimately ruin God’s great plan and blessing for them. This is the 3 levels of unbelief. Mack, is at level 1, he is not even sure God exists.

Whether this is the author’s intent or not, I don’t know. However this story is not about a believer rediscovering his faith. The more correct picture is this is a story about a man who had been lost in the religion all his life, but never really believed, never knew God… and now knowing God for the very first time.


Trinity: God being an African American woman… just a bit too Matrix for me. The meeting with the woman is just a bit too much on the Evangelical cliché of the “felt need provider God.” As discussed earlier in the premise, if this is God… meeting would not be like this, His mere presence would’ve overwhelmed Mack as it did Job, Moses, Asaph, Abram, etc… God would not need to explain Himself or comfort him, His very divine presence itself comforts.

I believe this is where many are having a hard time, and honestly I can see why. It is not that hard to figure out the 3 figures is an allusion to the trinity, with the mid-eastern man claiming to be Jesus himself. The author’s intent, as depicted in the end of this chapter, is to break the common cliché of European influence that God must be white and Jesus is a male model. However, it is also inappropriate to simply arbitrary throw in 3 unexpected counter clichés. Why? Because the trinity is not simply the concept of 3 arbitrary figures working as one, but their specific relation to one another is important. The actual trinity is a theological terminology used to describe the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Their relationship has a metaphorical property that is erased when we arbitrary put in other metaphors. First and foremost is the understanding of sonship, but also that Father being male is extremely significant. This is not a sexist comment. Remember that gender roles exist only because of the creation of Eve. The point of gender roles is also a metaphor of the roles we have with God: humanity taking role of Israel (God’s wife) and church (Christ’s bride). The trinity is about function/roles, submission, humbleness… 

Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness.
Philippians 2:5-7  

I cannot tell you whether this was the intent of the author, to universalize the trinity. But I would probably lean more towards suggesting perhaps the author himself does not really understand the nature of God very well. Changing the Father to some African American woman eliminates a lot of the important factors between the relationship of the Father and Son and also in the character of the Father. Turning the Holy Spirit in to the Asian woman is just strange.

Chapter 6
Here the author reveals the purpose for choosing the Father as an African American woman, to debunk the religious stereotypes. (pp 95). I’m mix feeling on this part, I agree that it is true today’s view of God is a Gandalf like old white man. God is the Spirit, and of course can appear as anything He likes. However, this reminds me of South Park where God appeared as a giant rat. The question remains, sure God can appears as anything, but is it convincing to suggest He would arbitrarily appear as anything? Yes, God is the Spirit and neither male or female, but the metaphor flows from us first, we are the “metaphor” for the relation with God. Another word, God is not gender neutral, but instead we were divided into male and female to understand the role of God and us.

God is spirit, and his worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth."
John 4:24 

The discussion on the nature of freedom seemed extremely brief, I have to admit it feels like the author is avoiding it. This then begs the question, why bother starting it? I am a bit disappointed because I thought we’re finally going to go deep and then it seems as more of just a transition to the cliché “Truth will set you free” without really even discussing how does truth set us free. But I think the next part is far more disturbing, the part talking about the Father crucified with the Son. This is completely theologically incorrect, not only so but… honestly it defeats the whole purpose of Christ’s sacrifice and reduced it to nothing but an emotional appeal. What I understand is the author is trying to enforce the “love” of God once again, that God never forsakes or leaves us. But as many of us already know, the sacrifice of Christ at the cross and the suffering He endured was not merely the “physical” hurt, emotional hurt, but the most devastating torture… to be separated from the Father for a brief time, because of sin. This is because God foremost is “holy,” and sin, which sets us apart from Him, was taken upon Christ Himself. The theology of the cross was more than about Christ overcoming “physical death” but also overcoming this separation, and return to the Father… thus completing the cycle, cleansed all our sins.

Jesus called out with a loud voice, "Father, into your hands I commit my spirit." When he had said this, he breathed his last.
Luke 23:46 

There are a few bright spots in this chapter. The author hits well on the nature of our creation, to be loved. He also hit a key point, that most people project their own image unto what they want to call God. But more so, God surpasses all that we think we know and even into what we don’t know. He surpasses all that we consider the greatest. There’s also a pretty solid reminder of the theology of Christ, of course being most people are taught in the church all their life about the non-negotiables. However, there is one error… pp 101 said Jesus had never drawn upon His nature as God to do anything, this is false. He drew upon His nature as God… to forgive sins. Remember, the Pharisees were angered when Christ forgave others, stating only God can forgive sins. However, it hits very clearly on the nature of Christ’ humanity, that the power to heal is the Father’s power working through Him. This is the very reason why everything Christ did can be done by us, state by Christ “you will do greater work.” Some claims that when the bleeding woman touched Him and was healed, this is an example of the power residing in Him. However, Christ proclaims that it was because of “her” faith, that is why she was healed.

"Why does this fellow talk like that? He's blaspheming! Who can forgive sins but God alone?"
Mark 2:7

The explanation on God is love is pretty good. Except it does take a stretch to say that all the relationships we have with one another exist because they exist already within God. Because there’s just so little Scriptural reference to support that. Furthermore, it also kind of defeats the reasoning behind our own creation. The more appropriate way is to say that all relationships that exist between each of us is foremost a reflection of the relationship we have with God. Example: Friend to Friend (God as our friend, Moses), Parent to Child (God the Father), Husband and wife (God and Israel, church), Siblings (Christ and us), Authority (Master/Servant, Teacher/Student), etc… The statement that “because God already has all these relationships within Himself is the reason He is love” is very flawed however. This states the necessity for God to exist in multiplicity in order to have love. That is flawed, the definition is not that God generates love, God gives love, God provides love… but God IS love. He IS the very nature of love, love IS God. He is the source where all we think we know of love comes from, and even more so that which we don’t know. He is the everlasting fountain that flows, which we would never go thirsty.

Chapter 7
Chapter 7 began with a good reflection on limitation, why God chose to limit Himself to have this relationship with us. This is the fabric of creation, why God would choose to be in creation to begin with. However, this whole interactions between the triune godheads is still somewhat fictional and I highly doubt is a clear reflection of God. The main issue with that is around the portrayal of love as yet reflection of meaningless emotionalism. This carries on to the strange portrayal of devotions done by the 3 figures, yet again feeding off meaningless emotionalism. It appears that “love” is what is being limited in this example, being reduced to nothing but emotional appeal. This also carried on into the usage of the word “holy,” describing the interactions in the kitchen and also Jesus looking at the stars. Again, the author equates “holy” with how “Mack feels.” Holiness is not a feeling, it is a word describing “separation.” God is holy because He is perfection, separated from everything else which is not Him.

Giving the Holy Spirit a name is also very incorrect. The only reason Jesus has a name is because He came down as a flesh. We know from the beginning that God is nameless, He is “I AM.” Why? Because the only reason name exist is to separate each of us apart. Since there is only 1 God, this is the reason God has no name. Names such as Yahweh, Jehovah, etc… are names given to God by man, after the corruption of false gods we’ve created into this world. Though the author tries hard to make the metaphor of the triune Godhead work, but it is still too separated and dangerously falling on the line of polytheism. The mentioning of Jesus be inside us is completely unscriptural, the Spirit of God which dwells in us is better described as the Holy Spirit, not Christ. Christ, means Messiah or Savior. The trinity is about functions and roles, all of which is then summed up back as the work of God.

Chapter 8
This chapter beings with yet another “if you are God” conversation which should not really happen, because if this character is God, Mack would know. You just know. One would argue that when Christ walked the earth thousands of years ago, many did not recognize Him as God, or accept Him. But the difference is that Christ then was also fully human. Unless the premise of this book is going to change that God here is now fully human, which would create much more problems for the plot. In the OT, there were times when the Spirit of God descended upon man, taking physical forms but still vastly different than taking on flesh like Christ did.

Abraham looked up and saw three men standing nearby. When he saw them, he hurried from the entrance of his tent to meet them and bowed low to the ground. He said, "If I have found favor in your eyes, my lord, do not pass your servant by.
Genesis 18:2-3 

However, there is a good conversation in this beginning concerning the misconception of this “angry God” picture we’ve painted ourselves. This also furthers into the misunderstanding about punishment and God’s wrath. Though I agree with the phrase that sin is its own punishment, but we still cannot nullify that God does punish. God is Holy, separated from sin. As we were called to “abhor” evil, God purifies humanity as a whole when evil cannot be overcome. We have to remember God has individual relationships with each of us, but also a unified relationship with humanity as a single entity. But the compassion of God is still visible in His decisions to punish as it demonstrated His patience and mercy, especially in waiting upon a nation’s sin to reach its peak. How many of us today has the same patience with our own children?

In the fourth generation your descendants will come back here, for the sin of the Amorites has not yet reached its full measure."
Genesis 15:16 

The topic of chain of command is dangerously wrong. The trinity is foremost a metaphor, as most things God reveals to us to explain the greater lesson in life. Again, there can be no chain of command because there is only ONE God. Remember the trinity is a theological term, not a biblical term. The author continues to make the mistake of referencing the triune Godhead as “3 people” rather than “3 persons.” However, as a metaphorical lesson, the trinity does indeed have a chain of command – the Father sends the Son, the Son sends the Holy Spirit, and in the final analysis… the Holy Spirit sends us into the world as His witnesses. The lesson taught here is about humbleness, order, and that submission has nothing to do with superiority, but about function and roles. Remember, Christ who IS God, but considers equality with the Father something not to be grasped! If He who is God submits to the Father, how much more must we submit to the Father? Circular relationship thing is a universalism philosophy.

"He who receives you receives me, and he who receives me receives the one who sent me.
Matthew 10:40  

The author here makes a critical error in his opinion that “hierarchy destroys relationships rather than promotes it.” This is blatantly wrong, a well-established relationship is one that has defined “function and role.” This is the very reason for the establishment of elders and deacons, which actually runs as far back as the time of Moses. This is also extremely clear in the marriage relationship, each must abide by function and role. Ephesians teaching on marriage is clear in the phrase “submit to one another,” a lesson that submission has nothing to do with superiority, but has to do with function, roles, and love. A hierarchal structure “establishes” relationships because it establishes order just as our relationship with God has an established order. The 10 commandments were never about rules and regulations to live by, but it establishes the role of God with His people. It establishes God as the one who creates and sets rules, and we are the ones who follow rules. This whole “free for all” circular relationship is what leads to chaos. If anything, one who cannot abide to hierarchy/structured order is one who cannot do so because of personal pride and a unsubmissive spirit, the very nature of sin.

The author states that “authority is merely the excuse the strong ones use to make others conform to what they want,” is extremely dangerous thing to say and very blasphemes if I dare to say so. Why? Because we already know all authority is foremost established by God. Yes, true that humanity corrupts authority, as humanity corrupts everything else, but that doesn’t mean authority itself is corrupted. This is just blatant lack of understanding what authority is, what roles/functions are, and what is established order. The author continues to proclaim that hierarchy and establish order is the cause of power struggle, prejudice, and war. This is poor reasoning, because what causes those things are exactly the opposite, but because of humanity’s tie to pride, selfishness, and self-centeredness which is what corrupts authority, corrupts hierarchies, and what causes wars. It is the lack of understanding the natural order of thing which creates the chaos we call life today.

Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me.
Matthew 28:18  

Everyone must submit himself to the governing authorities, for there is no authority except that which God has established. The authorities that exist have been established by God.
Romans 13:1 

This chapter does, however, end on a sound note, responding to humanities inability to understand God’s purpose is because of our inability to see God is good. We continue to blame God for the evil that we did, and still do, judging everything on what we know in our incomplete picture of reality. And the author hits this point clear, the main reason for this is because of our inability to trust, trust that God is good and thus tries to rationalize the hardships in our lives with our own judgment and justification.

Chapter 9
This chapter begins with yet another over exaggerated detail on counter expectation. Again, the author emphasized his distaste for men’s expectation of God to be of order and structure. However, panning to another extreme of endorsing chaos is not really what God is about either. The example with the garden is an exaggeration that failed to grasped that even in undisturbed nature, there is harmony and order. God is not about chaos, God is about harmonic order, perhaps not the order we know but everything He creates in some way compliments each other. The mess turns out in the end to be Mack’s sole, then is the author implying God loves a shattered soul?

Pp 133 made an error in calling Sarayu “Creator.” Since in this metaphor created by the author, Sarayu is the Holy Spirit, she should be designated as the counselor. The trinity is all about function and roles, it is God in 3 persons, yet each uniquely fulfill their functional roles. Remember Christ is not Jesus’ last name, it is His role as Messiah/Saviour. However, this part did have a good explanation on the destructiveness of humanity, yet blaming God for our own failures. This also follows into a good conversation concerning good/evil, about man’s independency, which lead to his own prideful ego to be the judge of all things. The ultimate solution is to surrender that pride to the acceptance of absolute truth, singular truth that binds all things together. This is what brings harmony, ergo counters the previous “chaos” example. However, the description of the duality of evil is the absence of good is just trivial in my opinion. Such simple philosophical explanation seems lacking. Plus, the duality of good and evil is not really a Christian belief, as it is a neo-platonic idea that was integrated into current Evangelical tradition via the Roman Catholics, who were once absorbed into Greek pagan beliefs. God also never asked us to “give up” our independence. This is completely wrong and lacking in understanding what love is, and what God is. Love is the ultimate reflection of free will, independent choice. God created us for the sole purpose to receive and accept His love, to be in this relationship. The choice of choosing God is not to give up free will, but the opposite, to exercise free will. Just because we have the free will to choose, it doesn’t mean every choice is right. We are given the choice to choose wrong, hence the choice to exercise free will, is to choose wisely, correctly, unselfishly.

Beyond Chapter 9
I honestly just don't have any desire to keep reading this book. If I do one day finish it, I'll finish this critique as well. But right now, just so much better things to do with my time.


Saturday, April 17, 2010

PUBLISHED!!!

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The Anvil of God: A Spiritual Reformation

After all this time, it is finally published! The long delays from editing, finalizing, and copy proofing... This work is done! For those who are unfamiliar with this work:

For the past couple of years I have been working on a book that combines
critical thinking of theology with applicable testimonies and stories.
More and more teachers and pastors are answering the call to champion the
coming of a much needed revival/reformation. We aim to restore the way
of the church back to the heart of the gospel, away from the rampant cliches
and liturgical jargons and focusing on authenticity and genuine
compassion
.

The strategy is to redirect believers to re-examine our fundamental
foundation with reasoning and contextual understanding
by asking the
basic questions: "Who IS Christ?" "What IS God?" "What IS church?" etc...
and to even more perplexing thoughts, "If a son is the offspring of the father,
then why is Christ called the Son of God?" "Did God create sin? If not,
does it mean then sin is outside of His providence?" "Did Adam and Eve
introduce sin by eating the fruit? Or was it because of sin, the reason Adam
and Eve ate the fruit?" "If Christ considered equality with the Father
something not to be grasped, why then do so many people today pray to
Christ? Is it appropriate?"

The point of the book is not as much to introduce ideas as it is to drive
readers to think differently, deeper, and more critical. We should not be
"programmed" into religion/tradition, but have the ability to think and
rationalize the text and know what all this is about.

A PREVIEW of the book is available at:

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My estore!!


 

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God Bless!


Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Still Waters

I ordered my proof copy of The Anvil of God today. Finally, after all this time, the battle is won, the storm is passed, and I find myself in still waters. In the past year, there were tremendous amount of "strange" occurences, fateful meetings, that left me in utter despair and depression. Ironically, I did not see the pattern, though they were obvious then as they are now. I suppose in the storm, it is hard for one to see what is happening. Perhaps as such the reason we need the support of brothers and sisters, to keep the sight of truth in front of us when we could no longer see.

At the height of the spiritual warfare, I was so depressed and hopeless that I didn't want to touch the work. My anger burns against the wickedness and corruption of the world, I did not want to help them. The Lord would not change His mind, and grinding my teeth, I obeyed. Partly because honor forbids me from disobeying, but truthfully it revealed how my past plays a role in the formation of what I am. In the past, I have already walked away once, forsake the Father that I love because of what I've seen in humanity. Knowing this and the redemptive grace poured on me, my anger with the wickedness of the world could not overshadow my love for my God. I found myself in the sheol, the belly of the fish, like Jonah.

I thought at the completion of the book, the warfare would stop, but they only intensified. For approxiamtely 120 days, I found myself in darkness, literally. Each week my body collapses at daybreak, and I found myself awake during the darkness of the night, alone in my prison. For 120 days I saw daylight but once a week, in a state of groggyness. I became as pale as a ghost and my muscles weakened like putty. Each day I eat the food that sustains my body, but wonder why am I prolonging this suffering. I wanted death so badly.

Timing of God
I wanted to publish the book as soon as possible, part of me realize that this work is the cause of all the warfare. I knew that I am at the last leg of the race, and I needed to push for the win. But obstacles came in the way and slowed me down. I was so worried that I am behind schedule, that perhaps God is upset with me because I am lagging in my work. The reality, I had always been on schedule, if anything trying to push for an early publication. I have already forknew a long time ago, this work will not take place until I reach 33. Surely surely, I tried to publish the week before I turn 33, only to find I gave the wrong chunk to one of my editors and was forced to wait until after I turn 33. God looks at me funny, "Why are you surprised? Why do you resist that which you know?"

I wanted all the glory, I didn't trust anyone, I wanted to complete the task all alone. But I knew I couldn't and I'm so glad I didn't. I asked the Lord for help, and He provided me with 7 editors to unload my burden. He provided me an angel, came at my most desperate moment to cheer me on for the last leg of this race. He provided me with an encouraging community of authors and pastors who shared in the same work, we champion the coming of a Spiritual revival. And I found myself finally at ease, yet still a prisoner in darkness.

One day, the Lord spoke to me, "Go and find my lost sheeps." I wrote this book for the world, for His people, but what good is it if I champion the work for many, yet forget the ones who are lost? Skeptical, yet hopeful, I contacted those in the past who has lost their ways. I had hoped they have found their way back, and that I will be able to help them. It was in this task, within 1 day, I was freed from my prison and saw daylight. And for each day afterward, I walked up the hill to meet with my Father, never taken each moment for granted. The sun, feels so soft on my skin, the wind soothe my soul as though they blew through me.

But it was in these moments I am with my Father, I am grieved by the lost. Is there any hope for these dead bones? I worry for them and I wept for them. I contacted them, but only 1 replied. But even as such, in her words I already knew she never did find her way back. I wanted to reach out to her more, I wanted to speak to her and tell her all the things I know. But the Lord said to me, "Be patient, they will have to reach you." Why? "Because they will have to decide what they want, else you cannot help them." So I wait. and I wait... and I wait.

"Be still... and know I am God."

During the time I was in darkness, I tried to move on. I applied to many positions overseas, but God closed every door. It was clear, I was going no where. I got my travel documents done, drove all the way to Sacramento. The Lord was with me, I wrote a testimony about what happened, how the Lord had been with me in getting these documents. So i know He wanted me to leave eventually, but I was frustrated why He closed every door. It should've been clear to me then, but it is now... it wasn't the right time. There are some unfinished business that I needed to do.

And now, I have fulfilled my calling. The book is being published, I have contacted the lost sheeps. Out of nowhere, the Lord opened a door, and the door opened widely with an inviting arm. I was still unsure whether this is for me. The Lord answered in 2 ways. First, the location of this place is in Gimhae. What people didn't know was, I was helping a person in Korea and she ended up subbing at Gimhae for a week. At the time I've never heard of the place. Could it be a coincidence now I am being sent there? The 2nd thing is, after I got my documents. Every recruiter told me that my background check is invalid, I need a state-level check. This requires me to drive up to Sacramento again. However, this company right now, confirmed 3 times with me that my documents are good. Could it be a coincidence? So now I know, God is taking me back and is still with me.

But my heart is tired and heavy. I am filled with sorrow for the lost.  I am worried about the one that replied back, yet unwilling to take the next step forward to change her life. I wanted so badly, just to keep contacting her. I wanted to contact those who didn't reply.  The Lord spoke to me yet again, through a random article I ran into... "Do not invite evil into your life..." I have done what was asked of me, I have already contacted them once. I must now wait patiently, if they would turn around and seek after me. For this is the way of the Lord, and the lesson I've always known. We can only make ourselves available, but we are not the ones who fight other's battles that rages within themselves. We cannot choose salvation for others. We cannot make decisions for others. They have to figure all this out themselves.

And so unable to do anything else, I prepare my way back to Korea.


 



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